Or so Winston Churchill said. (Well, not the bit about the blog. Obvs.)
This blog is very different now from what it set out to be. When I first set it up, I had just found out we were moving to Canada and, as a result, I was going to be unemployed for a while until I found my feet. As can be seen by the first post, I set up the blog to try and make sure that I would get out and about and do things and not sleep all day. It seems I was scared that, without a job, I had no identity and therefore nothing would happen in my life. But I was wrong. Life happened.
I have eventually realised that a job is not your identity – for most people ultimately it is just something you do to pay the bills and if you are lucky, you enjoy it a bit as well. But I didn’t have anything else that I identified with at the time, I had no hobbies and nothing I was passionate about. But I was a teacher, that was what I would’ve said if anyone asked me what I did or what I was interested in. To be honest, I was in a rut.
Moving to Canada sparked a huge transformation for me. It came at a time in my life when I really needed something new to happen – although I didn’t know it in the moment. I wasn’t happy with my weight, I was working ridiculous hours in a job that I did love (teaching) but was having the fun zapped out of it by the red tape holding it together, and I didn’t really want to do anything else with my time. It also coincided with a few other huge life milestones – turning 30, getting married, changing career – and so, with all these factors colliding together at breakneck speed, something eventually was going to happen.
What happened was I became vegan and took up running – two things I am passionate about and spend most of my time and energy on now. Veganism is at the heart of everything I think and do, so much so that I have recently been appointed as a Director for the Vegan Lifestyle Association, which you can read more about in the link here.
Running is now something I do every day, it is a massive part of my life (and where most of my pay cheque goes!) and I am much the better person for it, health wise and happiness wise. My identity now, if you asked me, is a vegan and a runner. I could fill my days ten times over with both of these things if I didn’t have a job.
So, having changed as a person so much since I started this blog, it is inevitable that the topics I talk about have shifted, too. For one thing, I am now back in London so don’t need to blog about what I’m up to every day! Also, if you look back at some of the early posts, I’m in a steakhouse!! I’ve learnt a lot about myself, what I care about and what I believe in and I want to share this with the world. So naturally, the focus for the blog is now on veganism and running and I’ll also be writing about what I care about and what I have learnt on my journey so far. I’m sorry if you no longer feel that it is for you. Feel free to unsubscribe if my ramblings are a bit boring to you now, I won’t be offended! (But I hope you’ll stay!)
So it seems that whilst I was so worried that nothing that mattered would happen in my life if I didn’t have a job, because I wasn’t anyone, actually taking my foot off the gas and stepping out of the rat race which I thought defined me actually meant that I was able to sit back a bit and let life itself happen. And with that, I worked out what does matter. To me, anyway.
I have no doubt that without making the massive change to move to Canada, that the other changes which came with it wouldn’t have taken place.
So, on Canada Day, I would like to say ‘thank you, Canada, you helped me find myself!’